Sunday, February 19, 2012

So much for consistent

Okay, so I'm not very consistent with blogging. What else is new?  I've been so busy these past few weeks with tests, meeting new people, work, and spending time with my friends.  But, it's the good kind of busy where I don't feel overwhelmed by the amount of stuff I have to do (at least, not yet). 

Anyways, I want to tell you guys about all the things God has been doing in my life. It's been so exciting! Recently, I've come to realize that I need some Christian friends to hold me accountable for my actions and point me in the right direction. So, two weeks ago I went to CRU (Campus Crusade for Christ) with a new friend.  I've really been interested in getting involved in a college-aged ministry and this was an awesome opportunity.  Since going to CRU that night, I have been overwhelmed by the outpouring of love and friendliness from so many girls.  Just this week, I met with four different girls and we shared our stories.  It's been so nice to open up about my faith. It feels like a rekindling of my fire for Christ and I'm so excited for it! 

In my friend group, I feel like my faith is stifled.  Maybe it's me, maybe it's the devil.  I feel like my friends might not be my friends anymore if I was on fire for Christ.  I'm afraid of sharing my faith because of what they'll think of me. I wish that the concern would go away, but it won't.  The sad truth is that my reliance on Christ is not stronger than my reliance on other people's opinions of me.  This is a weakness that I pray about constantly.  I want Christ's strength so that I can stand up to my friends and assert myself for once.  I tend to let myself not show "hurt feelings."  A little teasing jab here and there? Some vulgarity used as a joke or to tease? I just blow it off and pretend that it doesn't bother me.  I am not strong enough to stand up for myself and I want that to change. 

This week I'm praying for Christ's strength and love for me to be more than enough.  I'm praying that He'll fill me with a confidence in Him so strong that I have the strength to finally assert myself.  Philippians 4:13 "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." How simple, yet so comforting.

I hope that you guys have a great week and that the Lord works through you every day!


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